“I’m really excited for our future. You’re perf for me and I’m so lucky to have you.”

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Part of my week long body positivity challenge. Day five: what I love about myself. My perseverance. Five years ago my mom died and I didn’t think I would be able to handle it. Often I felt like giving up. It was hard for me to get out of the bed in the morning, let alone go to school and be a functioning human. Miraculously, I graduated with a medal for being top of my class. I hated myself for a long time, for many reasons, so I am happy made it out alive to become the crazy, feminist, fat, queer, self-loving woman I am today.

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Day one: body positive selfsie. Loving my chubby arms, belly, double chin. Happy because I get to spend the day with my bestfriend Lucy and I’m seeing my love Jill tomorrow

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The Post Secret I made like 5 five years ago. The angel looks like my mom. 

Anonymous asked: Hey baby, happy 8 months. <3 I love you thisssssssssssssssssssssssss much.

How did I not see this until now? I love you. 

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girlfriend appreciation post. 

I love you, Jill. I think you are such a strong, beautiful woman and I admire you for how far you’ve come. I am beyond proud of you for staying sober and being one semester away from graduating college. I love your passion for others that are in need. I love that you agree with me when I go off on crazy feminist rants. I love the mix cds you make me that I listen to when I’m on my way to see you. I love 3am crafting sessions. I love grilled cheese with you and the kitties. I love our long drives at all hours. You are an exceptional human being and I am truly lucky to have you in my life. 

Forever yours, 

Sof. 

3am thoughts

i used to be so worried about how i looked.

i went to fat camp in the 8th grade so i could enter high school skinnier.

i would always delete photos with my double chin showing.

i was scared of cutting my hair because i thought it would make me look chubbier.

i wanted to get a boob job because i was fat and my boobs were so small and what woman had an A cup and it wasn’t proportionate. 

i am so much happier with how i look/care less what people think now. i still like doing my makeup and getting all pretty, but i’m not thinking about how fat i look. of COURSE my double chin is going to show in pictures, i’m fucking fat and i have a double chin, and that’s okay. of COURSE cutting my hair isn’t going to affect how chubby i look, because i’m fucking chubby, and that’s okay. i don’t need a boob job because little boobies are nice, and i can not wear bras for 6 months straight, and fuck being “proportionate”.

anyways, 21 year old me is way happier than 19 year old me. 

having a girlfriend that loves me, my ugly, my body, my belly, my small boobs, my double chin, unconditionally, sure does help. 

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Missing all these babies a lot, and lap naps.

I felt so content I started to cry.

I lay face down so you could not tell.

I realized I need you 

Which scared me

And made me the happiest

All at once.